I turned 45 last Friday.
Funny thing just now—my fingers went mysteriously rogue and plunked in 24 the first time ‘round.
Strange.
It’s not a marker birthday or anything. It’s not like 21 or 40, but it is half way to 90 and I’ll admit that’s been slightly mind-boggling for me. Is that even a possibility? Can you be slightly mind-boggled or is the very word itself a full-on admission of a complete and utter flabbergast?
Technically, it’s middle-aged. I’m at mid-point. I’ve officially crossed the line between what was and what will be. This half versus that half. That is, assuming I make it to 90. There’s always a chance I may not. In which case, I am more than half way through my life. How in the world did I get here?
And, what happens now?
I can remember stretching out on the sun-warmed carpet in my family room sixteen years ago and promising myself I’d publish a book by the time I turned 30. (Who hasn’t promised themselves that? I can hear you asking) I was 29 then. I didn’t make it. But in the sixteen years since, I’ve raised a family, worked and written a book, albeit terrible and unpublishable, it is a book nonetheless.
Well, I’ve had a week to unboggle and now that my head is clear, I’ve come to a place where I realize I’m not only content with my age, but overjoyed to arrive at it. This year has taught me that. I am the fortunate one. I got here. I did make it. My goals are still on the table. I get the chance to keep going. I’m lucky to wake with hope beside me. I can continue my journey with possibility.
I get to live.
And, of course, make my own laundry soap. Because I hear that’s what 45 year-olds do…
Yeah, but you look like a young sexy 24 year old still! 45 has no effect on you!
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Phil…the big smile this just gave me is causing wrinkles! LOL. THANK YOU for the blast of confidence!
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We are so glad you get to live Hazy. So glad, we got this far together and we get to go onwards from here, even better.
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Yep.
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I still have to make my own soap … I just have to get around to it.
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It’s fun, Liz. Try it!
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I hear 60 is the new ‘middle age’ point so you’ve got a long way to go yet 😉 Happy Birthday! xxxx
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Oooh, I hope so. That makes me feel so much better! :))) Thanks, Dianne.
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First, happy birthday. I turned sixty this year, so I have good news. I survived. And I no longer have urges to do silly things such as make my own laundry detergent. But enjoy, child, while you can!
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LMAO, PC. A word from the wise. Thank you for the birthday wishes! 🙂
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