I’m afraid I’ve become a sayer rather than a doer. This wasn’t my intent. In fact, it was just the opposite. This blog was, in my eyes, a way for me to write on a regular basis; a stovetop on which to whip up tidy, complete meals and instant satisfaction. But in my forage for nourishment, it may have instead become a fridge full of leftovers; empty calories and unfulfilled dreams. Ironically, a little like my own cooking.
Speaking of mad kitchen skills, my husband and I had a lovely meal the other night, me nowhere near the oven. We cozied up in a wonderful, local restaurant. I sat taking in a view of the glistening ocean, a few glasses of robust vino and, a little later, an off the cuff comment; “You write too much about writing. You should, you know, write a novel (again) or something,” he said.
I won’t lie; it didn’t come as a shock. I have, in the very back crevices of my noggin’, felt a pang of recognition regarding this every time I start a new post.
He’s right, I do write about writing…a lot, but I feel I’m moving forward, albeit in baby steps. Perhaps this is how I’m finding my way, a cookbook of sorts.
I enjoy writing these posts immensely. I take great pleasure in imagining that I’m honing my skill and revving my engine. I cherish the fact that I may be of some slight inspiration to others who are attempting to follow their hearts and fulfill their dreams. I feel like I’m doing something about the direction in which I want my life to head. All good things, yes? Yes.
He’d second-guessed himself the moment it was out; worried he’d smothered the struggling fire of hope only just beginning to catch in my heart.
But I can only see the positive in my husband’s observation. A touch of lighter fluid always fuels a flame.
It means my subject matter has been clear, my blog has a theme (who knew), and (this is the best part) he’s actually been reading my posts. Hope burns eternal.
…you are a great cook Hazy…you and hubby are a good couple… 🙂
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Too kind…
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Right on!!!!
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Ha!
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Of course I read your posts. Now your fans are going to come after me!!!
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Yes they will. Especially since you didn’t even click like!
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Everything we do is either pre-writing, incubation, or drafting. At any time we can choose where it heads in our writing. Hope exists in every step and word. I’m feeling this strongly these days as I go back through my travel journals and published travel articles and realize that it all points to one place: writing. Hope springs eternal for this direction in my life just as my husband’s work life has just taken another direction – traveling around the country and to Chile and Spain (tentatively in the next few months). Hope and good luggage are the names of my home these days. Enjoyed the post, Ms. Hazy.
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Thank you, P.C. And I hope both you and your husband can share your paths…new or long travelled. Enjoy!
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Beautiful allegory – I will never look at my stove the same way again. And beautiful writing – your novel will ask to get down on paper, when it’s ready. I know mine did – it took me 4 years of thinking about it 🙂
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It asks every day…it just won’t tell me what it wants to say! 😉 Thank you for reading and commenting, Ksenia. I really appreciate it. And, congrats on your writing journey!
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Thank you!
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I have a special place in my heart for encouraging husbands. In the pursuit of my own happiness and dreams I sometimes forget my supportive partner has ones of his own. I truly enjoy your INCREDIBLY written blog posts, they are so clever and bite size – the perfect appetizer hinting towards the main course. xo
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I have a special place in my heart for you, Saige Wisdom and anyone else who lavishes me with oodles of unfounded praise. 😉 Thank you so much. It means a lot. And as for that (wonderful, handy-dandy) husband of yours…I’m sure he appreciates that big hunk of machine love you helped him buy!
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Parallel universe – again! I wonder are our husbands in cahoots?! I get you, 100%, and my hub obviously gets yours. A wonderful post – made me giggle and kick my backside! x
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Glad somebody gets me! As for those husbands, well… 😉 Happy you giggled and I hope I didn’t kick too hard – only meant it to be a tap!
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